Please don’t call the police or start your own investigation, the murder that I am contemplating is not a crime and the only person that can complete it is me. I am deciding whether or not to let this blog go or not. I started this website five years ago and it has gone through several different looks, and titles over that time. The last 12 months or so, I have turned it into a personal blog and wrote thoughts that I needed to get out about life. Now I am at a crossroads and contemplating all directions.
Why It Means something
It is easy to come up with the reasons that I should keep it going. First, there are so many thoughts that I have expressed here that have been heartfelt and honest, that I have a hard time differentiating between the writing and myself. Secondly, through the writing on this blog, I have met many wonderful people all over the world. They are talented and many are of like mind to me. I worry those connections will be lost if I move to another location or stop blogging altogether.
The Motivation for Murder
There are several motivations for taking this blog out once and for all. The reason the crossroads is here right now is that I have a choice to renew my domain or to let it go. In the past, it was a no brainer that I would renew it and another year of fun was in store. This year after the inititial panic of feeling entitled to get it done, there was another feeling. This was a feeling of perhaps, this endeavor has reached an end and it is time to move in another direction.
Another reason is that many of the thoughts I have and the writing that I do, I feel are limited by being associated with my identity. I feel I am limited, when I write a point of view I hold back a bit because I don’t want to offend, although, if offense is the result of words, then I should allow that result. I think others, get the ability to write from an anonymous point of view which brings a freedom from the past and the parts of themselves that worry.
So there is a week to go before I make this choice. Continue and change the current site to be able to create better. Let it all go, and start over with another domain and website that will have a new genre, and create a writing personality who has more courage than me. Just stop writing all together. (Idle threat, I will never stop writing, but I want to put all ideas on the table). Or another step that reveals itself to me.
I would love suggestions and any advice at all on this subject as I clearly am in need of the voice of wiser and more experienced writers to help guide me.
The Truth seemed like an appropriate song for this decision.
Taking A Break.
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